Originally written: april 2023
This blog was written a while ago when I last visited Miss Butterfly in Canada. The parts in purple are written by Butterfly
I still can’t believe what happened today. I am still processing it in my head as I write this part the day after. When we were packing for the hotel it seemed like what Miss Butterfly had planned for today would NOT happen after all and I felt both sad but also kind of relieved at the same time.
But then… when we were driving to the hotel - with many toys in our suitcase - it was suddenly confirmed that it WOULD happen.
The man that I had originally lined up to come to our hotel, was unfortunately sick. I was feeling pretty sad and disappointed because I knew that Jaro wanted this very much. But, the hotel was already booked and paid for, so we decided we were going to go anyways and maybe we would try to fist him instead.
So, I was elated (and also a bit nervous) when my backup was actually free and able to come to the hotel on short notice. This guy is somebody who I know from our local kink community. We have attended parties together, but have never really spent time alone. But I knew he was tested and safe, and so the arrangements were made.
My heart started racing and I felt SO nervous for the next few hours. Am I really going to let a guy fuck me? I felt like I might freak out again like last time. However I also knew that I had safewords and I trust Miss with my life. I tried to calm down and feel excited about doing something I had secretly wanted -to try- for a long time.
While Jaro was getting ready, cleaning out his ass, I answered the hotel room door and invited N into our room. Him and I sat in the living room space and talked. We discussed what Jaros safewords were, how we wanted the scene to go, and the fact that I wanted to be flexible based on how Jaro was doing. Did I want him to fuck him roughly? Should he make him cum? How did I want N to finish?
When Miss called me I stepped - wearing only a thong - into the other room to greet N. I saw a young man who I obviously didn’t know. I shook his hand and then Miss and I went back into the bedroom, where I had to take off the panties and sit, doggy style on the bed with my legs spread and my ass out.
N then also came in, undressed, got himself hard and put on a condom. I had said before that I didn’t want to be blindfolded. I wanted to see everything. However I did take off my glasses so that at least everything was a bit blurred.
I prepped Jaro’s ass. Wearing a glove, I probed his hole with plenty of lube.
N now stood between my feet that were on the edge of the bed, and pushed his hard cock inside me and started fucking me! I couldn’t believe this was really happening now. I am really straight and I had never… Another man was fucking my ass right now! It felt uncomfortable and I wasn’t sure I liked the feeling now. (I had not done anal for a while now) But at the same time I felt relieved and kind of proud that I was able to go through with it. The nerves were gone now too.
As N was fucking Jaro’s ass, I used my crop and hit his thighs and his ass. I leaned down close to his ear and talked to him as I reached my hand under him and started to stroke his cock. I asked him he could cum while having his ass fucked. His response was “I don’t want to” … but that wasn’t my question and I told him so. He answered “yes”. But I didn’t want him to cum yet either. He was here for N’s pleasure, not his.
N slid out, took off his condom and it was time for the blow job to begin. I ordered Jaro to his knees.
What was happening!? I knew this part would likely also happen but now that I was on the floor with his penis hovering just a few inches from my eyes I felt really hesitant. I just sat there for a while and just couldn’t bring myself to bring my mouth towards his cock.
Jaro was still about a foot away from N’s cock. I told him to get closer and put it in his mouth. He didn’t move and instead said “This is weird ''. I more sternly told him to suck N’s cock.
My heart was racing now. I wasn’t nervous, it just felt extremely awkward to actually do this now but… I did. I finally put my lips around his cock and…. started sucking him! I felt SO humiliated doing this!
I was startled about how warm his penis was, which makes sense, but for some odd reason I didn’t expect that. It also felt nothing like sucking a dildo. His cock was not fully hard and it wasn’t very big. I sucked him slowly at first, but Miss said I should put more effort in. Also use my tongue. Hold it at the base. N also commented that he could feel my teeth a few times.
I was also feeling a bit awkward since my part was mostly just watching. N and I kept making eye contact lol. So I used that nervous energy to berate my worm a bit. I told him he needed to step up his game. I also gave him a non-verbal safeword and told him that N was allowed to put his hands on his head if he wanted to.
When I put some more effort in and went a bit faster, he got harder. He also commented that this was better. However when Miss asked him to rate this blowjob on a scale of 1 to 10, he rated it a 3.
Sucking him was so stressful! Not the sucking itself, although I even gagged a few times, but really the position I was in. It was stressful and painful on my neck. It was also tiring. It really cost me a lot of energy doing this, and apparently it was not nearly enough to make him cum.
It was pretty entertaining to see him squirm around and try to get comfortable. At one point he was on one knee and holding the back of his own head. Blow jobs aren’t always easy! It takes some stamina! Of course I used the opportunity to use my crop on him in different exposed areas as he moved around.
I was finally allowed to stop, but then I had to keep my mouth open and face up as he was stroking himself to orgasm. He then came all over my face and in my mouth and… I had to swallow.
Jaro did such a great job! I know he is disappointed that he wasn’t able to make him cum or that he was only rated a 3, but I think, for his first try, he did so well! I am so proud of him for not freaking out and for continuing.
This session has been one of the most extreme and humiliating I have done in my kink ‘career’ so far. It turned out to be the opposite of what I had expected. Getting fucked in the ass turned out easier and a bit less fun than I expected but the blowjobs was much harder than I expected and... in hindsight more fun too!
During aftercare I initially commented that I would do the anal fucking again but definitely not the blowjob and that this experience definitely didn’t turn me bi-sexual.
However now, after I have had a day to process, I am reconsidering and thinking I would try giving a blowjob again. It really bugs me that he rated it only a 3 and I…. feel like I have to improve. Also, I really loved the humiliating aspect of it.
I can certainly arrange that! Actually, N has already said that he would be willing to come back again when Jaro visits next and we can see if he has improved any!
Addendum:
Now, on Easter Sunday of 2025, after reading this again and thinking it over I feel absolutely confident that I want to do this again. Both the anal and the blowjob. While I am not attracted to men romantically, their penises are hot and fun so why the hell not? And I really don't want to get rated a 3 again.
This blog was written a while ago when I last visited Miss Butterfly in Canada. The parts in purple are written by Butterfly
I still can’t believe what happened today. I am still processing it in my head as I write this part the day after. When we were packing for the hotel it seemed like what Miss Butterfly had planned for today would NOT happen after all and I felt both sad but also kind of relieved at the same time.
But then… when we were driving to the hotel - with many toys in our suitcase - it was suddenly confirmed that it WOULD happen.
The man that I had originally lined up to come to our hotel, was unfortunately sick. I was feeling pretty sad and disappointed because I knew that Jaro wanted this very much. But, the hotel was already booked and paid for, so we decided we were going to go anyways and maybe we would try to fist him instead.
So, I was elated (and also a bit nervous) when my backup was actually free and able to come to the hotel on short notice. This guy is somebody who I know from our local kink community. We have attended parties together, but have never really spent time alone. But I knew he was tested and safe, and so the arrangements were made.
My heart started racing and I felt SO nervous for the next few hours. Am I really going to let a guy fuck me? I felt like I might freak out again like last time. However I also knew that I had safewords and I trust Miss with my life. I tried to calm down and feel excited about doing something I had secretly wanted -to try- for a long time.
While Jaro was getting ready, cleaning out his ass, I answered the hotel room door and invited N into our room. Him and I sat in the living room space and talked. We discussed what Jaros safewords were, how we wanted the scene to go, and the fact that I wanted to be flexible based on how Jaro was doing. Did I want him to fuck him roughly? Should he make him cum? How did I want N to finish?
When Miss called me I stepped - wearing only a thong - into the other room to greet N. I saw a young man who I obviously didn’t know. I shook his hand and then Miss and I went back into the bedroom, where I had to take off the panties and sit, doggy style on the bed with my legs spread and my ass out.
N then also came in, undressed, got himself hard and put on a condom. I had said before that I didn’t want to be blindfolded. I wanted to see everything. However I did take off my glasses so that at least everything was a bit blurred.
I prepped Jaro’s ass. Wearing a glove, I probed his hole with plenty of lube.
N now stood between my feet that were on the edge of the bed, and pushed his hard cock inside me and started fucking me! I couldn’t believe this was really happening now. I am really straight and I had never… Another man was fucking my ass right now! It felt uncomfortable and I wasn’t sure I liked the feeling now. (I had not done anal for a while now) But at the same time I felt relieved and kind of proud that I was able to go through with it. The nerves were gone now too.
As N was fucking Jaro’s ass, I used my crop and hit his thighs and his ass. I leaned down close to his ear and talked to him as I reached my hand under him and started to stroke his cock. I asked him he could cum while having his ass fucked. His response was “I don’t want to” … but that wasn’t my question and I told him so. He answered “yes”. But I didn’t want him to cum yet either. He was here for N’s pleasure, not his.
N slid out, took off his condom and it was time for the blow job to begin. I ordered Jaro to his knees.
What was happening!? I knew this part would likely also happen but now that I was on the floor with his penis hovering just a few inches from my eyes I felt really hesitant. I just sat there for a while and just couldn’t bring myself to bring my mouth towards his cock.
Jaro was still about a foot away from N’s cock. I told him to get closer and put it in his mouth. He didn’t move and instead said “This is weird ''. I more sternly told him to suck N’s cock.
My heart was racing now. I wasn’t nervous, it just felt extremely awkward to actually do this now but… I did. I finally put my lips around his cock and…. started sucking him! I felt SO humiliated doing this!
I was startled about how warm his penis was, which makes sense, but for some odd reason I didn’t expect that. It also felt nothing like sucking a dildo. His cock was not fully hard and it wasn’t very big. I sucked him slowly at first, but Miss said I should put more effort in. Also use my tongue. Hold it at the base. N also commented that he could feel my teeth a few times.
I was also feeling a bit awkward since my part was mostly just watching. N and I kept making eye contact lol. So I used that nervous energy to berate my worm a bit. I told him he needed to step up his game. I also gave him a non-verbal safeword and told him that N was allowed to put his hands on his head if he wanted to.
When I put some more effort in and went a bit faster, he got harder. He also commented that this was better. However when Miss asked him to rate this blowjob on a scale of 1 to 10, he rated it a 3.
Sucking him was so stressful! Not the sucking itself, although I even gagged a few times, but really the position I was in. It was stressful and painful on my neck. It was also tiring. It really cost me a lot of energy doing this, and apparently it was not nearly enough to make him cum.
It was pretty entertaining to see him squirm around and try to get comfortable. At one point he was on one knee and holding the back of his own head. Blow jobs aren’t always easy! It takes some stamina! Of course I used the opportunity to use my crop on him in different exposed areas as he moved around.
I was finally allowed to stop, but then I had to keep my mouth open and face up as he was stroking himself to orgasm. He then came all over my face and in my mouth and… I had to swallow.
Jaro did such a great job! I know he is disappointed that he wasn’t able to make him cum or that he was only rated a 3, but I think, for his first try, he did so well! I am so proud of him for not freaking out and for continuing.
This session has been one of the most extreme and humiliating I have done in my kink ‘career’ so far. It turned out to be the opposite of what I had expected. Getting fucked in the ass turned out easier and a bit less fun than I expected but the blowjobs was much harder than I expected and... in hindsight more fun too!
During aftercare I initially commented that I would do the anal fucking again but definitely not the blowjob and that this experience definitely didn’t turn me bi-sexual.
However now, after I have had a day to process, I am reconsidering and thinking I would try giving a blowjob again. It really bugs me that he rated it only a 3 and I…. feel like I have to improve. Also, I really loved the humiliating aspect of it.
I can certainly arrange that! Actually, N has already said that he would be willing to come back again when Jaro visits next and we can see if he has improved any!
Addendum:
Now, on Easter Sunday of 2025, after reading this again and thinking it over I feel absolutely confident that I want to do this again. Both the anal and the blowjob. While I am not attracted to men romantically, their penises are hot and fun so why the hell not? And I really don't want to get rated a 3 again.
