sissysteph121
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- Joined
- Feb 11, 2026
Hello,
Story starts with cross dressing and wearing like 20 pairs of my mom's panties when I was like 11-14. I would put many pairs of panties on over top of eachother then when I essentially had this big padded panty on and completely reduced any stimulation I would hump the floor or pillow for hours. I didn't realize the damage physically or mentally I was doing. Physically I was mashing my prepubescent erection with no feeling for how much force I was wrenching on it. Forcing it in the wrong direction. Mentally, I was able to get off to this. I would soak her first layer of panties once I was able to cum. I was essentially coming like a girl. Half soft. I don't know if this reaffirmed to my brain that I don't need to be erect to cum. It was a very developmental time in my life.
This lead to my sissyhood. This destroyed any chance I had at being an alpha male, I won't be passing on my genes, in here to please alpha men and women.
Since about 15+ years old I haven't been able to get erect. I don't know if it's from this or something else. Maybe it's a self esteem thing or medical. But I now really crave embarrassment and humiliation. Reaffirms where I am in the hierarchy. I like when alpha males and females degrade me so feel free to leave a comment.
Story starts with cross dressing and wearing like 20 pairs of my mom's panties when I was like 11-14. I would put many pairs of panties on over top of eachother then when I essentially had this big padded panty on and completely reduced any stimulation I would hump the floor or pillow for hours. I didn't realize the damage physically or mentally I was doing. Physically I was mashing my prepubescent erection with no feeling for how much force I was wrenching on it. Forcing it in the wrong direction. Mentally, I was able to get off to this. I would soak her first layer of panties once I was able to cum. I was essentially coming like a girl. Half soft. I don't know if this reaffirmed to my brain that I don't need to be erect to cum. It was a very developmental time in my life.
This lead to my sissyhood. This destroyed any chance I had at being an alpha male, I won't be passing on my genes, in here to please alpha men and women.
Since about 15+ years old I haven't been able to get erect. I don't know if it's from this or something else. Maybe it's a self esteem thing or medical. But I now really crave embarrassment and humiliation. Reaffirms where I am in the hierarchy. I like when alpha males and females degrade me so feel free to leave a comment.