Quick share on where I'm at as a locked sub.
Rule #1: I only cum when explicitly told—no exceptions. Last allowed orgasm was December 27th (it's been over a month now). The constant ache is intense, but I get why denial is part of my role. I crave release more than ever, yet surrendering that control feels right and hot.
Working on cum eating next. Right now I don't enjoy the taste or the act—it's vulnerable and a bit off-putting. Goal: reach the point where it's automatic and instinctive, just part of being a good sub after spilling. Any practical tips (flavor hacks, mental reframes) are welcome!
The cage changes everything. When it's on, I instantly feel much more submissive—quieter mind, softer demeanor, focused on service. The weight is a perfect, constant reminder of who this belongs to.
And soon… I'll be in a hotel for a few days, alone with my toys. I'm really looking forward to using my asshole a lot—deep, prolonged play—and finally being allowed to release all that built-up cum. The thought of it has me leaking already. Fingers crossed for permission when the time comes.
That's the snapshot. Grateful for this space to be real about the journey. Locked, denied, and slowly rewiring.
Rule #1: I only cum when explicitly told—no exceptions. Last allowed orgasm was December 27th (it's been over a month now). The constant ache is intense, but I get why denial is part of my role. I crave release more than ever, yet surrendering that control feels right and hot.
Working on cum eating next. Right now I don't enjoy the taste or the act—it's vulnerable and a bit off-putting. Goal: reach the point where it's automatic and instinctive, just part of being a good sub after spilling. Any practical tips (flavor hacks, mental reframes) are welcome!
The cage changes everything. When it's on, I instantly feel much more submissive—quieter mind, softer demeanor, focused on service. The weight is a perfect, constant reminder of who this belongs to.
And soon… I'll be in a hotel for a few days, alone with my toys. I'm really looking forward to using my asshole a lot—deep, prolonged play—and finally being allowed to release all that built-up cum. The thought of it has me leaking already. Fingers crossed for permission when the time comes.
That's the snapshot. Grateful for this space to be real about the journey. Locked, denied, and slowly rewiring.
