For this blog I selected one of Miss Butterfly's suggested topics.
How did I discover my kink? Which kink exactly? Or kink in general?
I think I will make this blog about kink in general.
I joined the party rather late. Or... actually, rather early as well. Let me explain.
I was but a teenager when I had my first orgasm. I remember it vividly like yesterday because of the way I got it!
I was sitting in my room experimenting with... tying up my crotch area. I don't know how I got the inspiration to do that back then. We did not have internet yet. I did not have any dirty magazines. Nor did I have friends that told me about this and my parents certainly didn't. I honestly have no idea... maybe it really was an innate taste for bondage, but I tied myself some kind of crotch rope. I don't remember exactly how. But I do remember that it turned me on so much that it made me cum!
That was the very first time I came and it shocked me. It was SO unexpected. That crazy sticky white stuff coming out. But it certainly got me eager for more, so I did that more times, thinking it was the only way I could cum. Yes I was so green and innocent!
Fast forward several years into my early twenties. I wanted to stick something up my ass! I did have internet then and certainly got the inspiration from there. I was watching a lot of porn back then. Normal porn but also BDSM porn specifically. More than now, at least when it comes to videos.
But I certainly didn't dare to buy a sex toys. So I got creative and carved a butt plug myself out of a piece of wood!
In hindsight pretty dumb considering the risk of splinters but I did end up succeeding without injury. Using baby oil for lube!
It was small, but back then it felt like a big accomplishment!
Again fast forward several years. Yes, my journey was very fragmented. At some point when I was already working and living on my own I decided to take the plunge and go into a sex store - yes an actual physical store - to buy my first butt plug. It's my 'small' plug these days (yes I still have it) but back then for me it was HUGE. I remember taking a very long time to actually get it inside me but when I finally did, I felt so proud! During that time I also experimented with self-bondage. I got pretty elaborate - and very risky - with that too. I did find inspiration online, but it hadn't discovered getDare yet.
Again fast forward to about 10 years ago when I can say my kink life officially began when I discovered getDare. It was then that I really began experimenting a lot and actually talking to others - albeit online - about my fetishes. By then I had also discovered my foot fetish (which also didin't happen until much later in life) and many others. It was also on getDare that I met my wonderful Domme Miss @Butterfly who I have since met several times in person.
In the last 10 years I have also joined FetLife, went to munches, went to a pro-domme a few times and played with Miss Butterfly and a few co-dommes online and in person!
Even though the intensity of my submission and activities has slowed down in recent years, my fetishes are as strong as ever and pure vanilla sex doesn't interest me as much. I am very happy to still be part of this community.
I hope this has shed some good light into my journey. I find it interesting that I still remember some of the key points, while my memory in general is not the best.
How did I discover my kink? Which kink exactly? Or kink in general?
I think I will make this blog about kink in general.
I joined the party rather late. Or... actually, rather early as well. Let me explain.
I was but a teenager when I had my first orgasm. I remember it vividly like yesterday because of the way I got it!
I was sitting in my room experimenting with... tying up my crotch area. I don't know how I got the inspiration to do that back then. We did not have internet yet. I did not have any dirty magazines. Nor did I have friends that told me about this and my parents certainly didn't. I honestly have no idea... maybe it really was an innate taste for bondage, but I tied myself some kind of crotch rope. I don't remember exactly how. But I do remember that it turned me on so much that it made me cum!
That was the very first time I came and it shocked me. It was SO unexpected. That crazy sticky white stuff coming out. But it certainly got me eager for more, so I did that more times, thinking it was the only way I could cum. Yes I was so green and innocent!
Fast forward several years into my early twenties. I wanted to stick something up my ass! I did have internet then and certainly got the inspiration from there. I was watching a lot of porn back then. Normal porn but also BDSM porn specifically. More than now, at least when it comes to videos.
But I certainly didn't dare to buy a sex toys. So I got creative and carved a butt plug myself out of a piece of wood!
In hindsight pretty dumb considering the risk of splinters but I did end up succeeding without injury. Using baby oil for lube!
It was small, but back then it felt like a big accomplishment!
Again fast forward several years. Yes, my journey was very fragmented. At some point when I was already working and living on my own I decided to take the plunge and go into a sex store - yes an actual physical store - to buy my first butt plug. It's my 'small' plug these days (yes I still have it) but back then for me it was HUGE. I remember taking a very long time to actually get it inside me but when I finally did, I felt so proud! During that time I also experimented with self-bondage. I got pretty elaborate - and very risky - with that too. I did find inspiration online, but it hadn't discovered getDare yet.
Again fast forward to about 10 years ago when I can say my kink life officially began when I discovered getDare. It was then that I really began experimenting a lot and actually talking to others - albeit online - about my fetishes. By then I had also discovered my foot fetish (which also didin't happen until much later in life) and many others. It was also on getDare that I met my wonderful Domme Miss @Butterfly who I have since met several times in person.
In the last 10 years I have also joined FetLife, went to munches, went to a pro-domme a few times and played with Miss Butterfly and a few co-dommes online and in person!
Even though the intensity of my submission and activities has slowed down in recent years, my fetishes are as strong as ever and pure vanilla sex doesn't interest me as much. I am very happy to still be part of this community.
I hope this has shed some good light into my journey. I find it interesting that I still remember some of the key points, while my memory in general is not the best.
