Porn!

I have to admit that porn was something that I didn't really have much exposure to in my teen or early adult year. When I wanted to get off, I would usually find a good story to read, or just fantasize in my own head. Really, my only real exposure to porn videos was through my best friend. When I was 10 she turned porn on the tv and giggled about it, thinking it was hilarious. In college when we lived together, I could hear her watching it in her bedroom and she would tell me about it, but I was never interested. I was mortified and blushy at the thought of watching porn.

When I told Mr. Devious when we first started dating, that I had never watched porn, he started to send me one little video a week that I had to watch while touching. Most were bdsm themed and I found that some of them really turned me on. It got me curious and I started to search for my own videos when I got to have solo playtime.

I found that I am really picky with porn. I can get turned off very easily.

• It can't feel fake or rehearsed or cheesy. I like the videos that feel authentic and genuine. They usually start with the girl being interviewed in the dungeon, consenting to being tied up, etc. I don't want role play.
• It has to be BDSM themed. Regular vanilla porn does nothing for me.
• My usual go-to is female sub, male Dom (though I will sometimes enjoy watching a male sub with a female Domme)
• Usually it is centered around a girl being tortured, teased or used in some way
• It cannot have too much name calling or gagging (by this I mean the girls can be gagged but cannot gag continuously on a cock etc.).
• It needs to have sound. I want to hear the noises. But also, those noises can't be fake or obnoxious.

Over time the themes I have enjoyed and explored have changed. But overall, my preference have stayed pretty consistent. One of the best sites for the types of videos that I enjoy are from kink.com or insex. Though, I like to try to find the full length ones on other sites because the previews are just too short and I refuse to pay for porn!

Mr. Devious has teased me throughout the years that I am addicted to porn. I don't think I am *addicted*, but I do really really enjoy it. I was recently reminded of this when my ability to watch porn while playing solo was impeded. It really is something that adds to my solo play time. I know I could give it up, but I don't want to I feel like I've somehow missed out on an important part of my teenage years. Maybe I am a teeny bit addicted but it's so exciting and *blush*

Though, I do have to admit that watching makes me feel dirty and naughty and blushy. Just admitting that I love porn makes me feel these things! The thought of watching porn with a partner (or even hearing me watch) makes me want to die (confession - watching a sex scene in a movie with somebody else makes me feel blushy too!)

Anyways .... I like porn.

The end.

 

[Jaro]

You always hear that women generally don't like porn, but I'm sure that's not true. You are a great exception!
But I definitely don't think you are addicted!