My discovery of denial and edging, written down in a chaotic way.

I just got a new laptop, so this seems like the perfect time to write a blog, and what is better to talk about than edging? I will
just write whatever comes to mind, so I dont think it will be very well written…. but that won’t stop me!! Also, don’t mind bad
grammer…. I am not used to not having autocorrect….

my first real jump into kink had to do with edging. I joined a thread on getdare, it was called “The never ending story of denial”.
The base of that thread was as follows: every one who wanted to could join the thread, and everyone who joined agreed to be in
denial until there where no posts in that thread for more than 24 hours. as more people would join, the smaller the chances of that
would become. I had been looking around the site for a little longer, but this sounded for the perfect time to make an account and
join in to the fun. and fun it was. I already knew from exploring myself that I liked edging and denial, but I didnt have the discipline
to hold myself to it. this thread was the first time that I did. in the end this first real denial period, with up to 50 edges daily was
something I most definitely enjoyed. Through this thread I found someone else who I had some fun with including some more denial,
but this didnt last to long, as i decided to make my next big step….

I made my own, gone slightly (more than slightly) add thread. trough this thread I collected an undoable amount of edges… 402107
edges to be exact….. I had a lot of fun in this thread, and there was no doubt anymore about the fact that I liked edging. The amount
of edges I collected, and everything else I collected didnt end up beind the deciding factor in my denial, because through that thread
I met princess.

What started as me needing some motivation with cleaning my room with which she helped turned into a amazing
Friendship, never ending chats, and the best dom for me I could ever imagine. we decided that is was more fun, and more practical
if princess just had control over my orgasms, and edges. and it so far has indeed been way more fun. It has been a never ending
adventure. Somtimes I am only allowed a limited amount of edges, sometimes I can have as many as I want. princess knows all the
buttons that are on me and knows exactly which once to press when.

Now some more detail into which buttons we have found…If I am not allowed to touch, I just go crazy Last year i decided to join
one of the things.. forgot the name… with the month october that meant i could touch my self at all. I made it through all month,
but it was one of the hardest and most frustrating things I have done in my kink career. and the day when I was allowed to touch
again, I failed and had an orgasm…. So, no touch isnt my stronest point, and not one I am looking to train… ever..

tigerbalm…. my enemy… first of all, it is quite a strong, not enjoyable feeling that will not in any way go away anytime soon once
you put it on…. and not only is it uncomfortable, it also makes me anable to edge… that shit is torturous!!!!! I do like to order other
people to put on tigerbalm…. but because I got a bit to over confident in my luck with dice, now the first time I wanna order someone
else to put it on i need to put in on myself as well…. ):

Oehhh, cycling lanes!! I dont ever really watch porn, sex doesnt turn me on so neither does looking at it. but, ever since I cycled with
my dildo in, my brain goes to cycling lanes really often with edging…. so I guess cycling lanes are my porn? maybe I should write an
entire blog about my asexual, and unique way of how I do certain things….

Well, this indeed ended to be a hot mess of a blog… I hope it is still readable and somewhat enjoyable…. If any other things come into
my mind that seem important I can always add more on here…. And I am sure princess can as well, as she is the one that remembers
Things, not me…..

 

[The Brat Princess]

Princess will indeed add to your blog

The first I can start with is at the point of your slightly insane add thread. The numbers of which did hit quite high on more than just edging. But it was slightly more than cleaning your room that you required motivation for, you were also a little behind on collage work for which I was also able to provide some motivation and organization. Snoek's energy in the thread had caught my attention from the first visit. I had seen people with multiple add threads... some would go silent on the thread... some would keep asking for less... Snoek's approach was the type of chatting with people who posted. Not unusual I had seen this before also. But it was the energetic way in which it was done that always caught my attention. Energetic and chaotic.

Indeed over time I did take control of your edging and orgasms. I had also kept an eye on how locktober went for you and had noticed that no touch was a very difficult challenge for you and that a month was pushing limits. (Though my control over both edges and orgasms came after.)

Whilst yes things did start out as motivating and organizing you, it did become a very good friendship and dynamic that works for us both over time. Also I think more what you were looking for without knowing it was what you wanted. (But then what subby doesn't hope for a good dom that understands them and their needs.) Holding back from orgasm when it is ordered by the mob of a website can be fun in its own right, but has a different feel to when it is for someone you have built a bond with. Amongst other things . So lets talk about those buttons.....

Lets start with the one that this blog is most about, edging. It quickly became apparent to me that you were both able to edge a lot and willing, but... what if those edges were limited down to a smaller number and more controlled on when they could be done, could that help keep you focused on your needed tasks and make the edges more impactful? Well... yes.. it has. It was not the first thing I learned but certainly one that has been impactful in more ways than one. When permitted to edge as much as she likes Snoek will edge far more often and the edges become easier to do, but the constant arousal has a negative impact on getting other things done, her mind wandering back to edging often. But when controlled, the first edge douse become harder to reach but they are more impactful and allow Snoek to be horny without losing all focus to edging.

Next on the list... the no touch from locktober, that was very impactful. No touch is a big big motivator that Snoek will go to quite the effort to avoid. It was also the first thing I took control over. (though I limited the length to days as locktober had shown that would be enough to motivated and indeed it was.) While Snoek has called tiger balm her enemy... I would say it is more apt to sat that no touch is. The level of frustration Snoek can hit in just a day of no touch can be enough to make the next days edges slightly risky and required to be controlled (Much to her protests that she can do it, when she has tried she has gone too far.) And after a month... it is pretty much a guarantee that Snoek will go over on the first edge attempt.

So... Tiger balm... The one that always makes me giggle. Snoek has had quite the journey with this one. When Snoek first tried tiger balm it was near impossible to get her to stop applying lol, she would constantly beg for more as the feel of the burning started to go down. So what changed? The first edge was what changed that. When Snoek first released how difficult the first edge after tiger balm was to get to and how intense it felt due to being so over sensitized.... that was when Snoek decided it was an enemy taking away her beloved edges lol. While something I don't often use, this can be useful. If I am giving permission for someone else to control her vibe. This can be a useful thing to do prior to reduce the risk they push Snoek over into orgasm. But Snoek will still protest. It is not the tiger balm itself (though Snoek douse find that intense, but the difficulty of edging that douse it.)

So cycling lanes.... wonder how that one happened The experience of the cycling with a dildo in did have quite the impact I had hoped it would

But the biggest one is not in the list, the biggest thing princess has learned through your edging amongst other things is just how quickly and easily you can get sub frenzy. This has been the constant one to manage as I can control what new stuff I say to you... not so much others.... and the minute you learn something new... full on sub frenzy again this isn't the worst thing and certainly not unique to you, but it is something to watch as the same way it will get you edging non stop it can also push you to try things your not fully ready for or to go further with things than you should. But again not unique and I don't know if there is a subby out there that hasn't had frenzy at least once. (:

 

[snoek]

Princess will indeed add to your blog

The first I can start with is at the point of your slightly insane add thread. The numbers of which did hit quite high on more than just edging. But it was slightly more than cleaning your room that you required motivation for, you were also a little behind on collage work for which I was also able to provide some motivation and organization. Snoek's energy in the thread had caught my attention from the first visit. I had seen people with multiple add threads... some would go silent on the thread... some would keep asking for less... Snoek's approach was the type of chatting with people who posted. Not unusual I had seen this before also. But it was the energetic way in which it was done that always caught my attention. Energetic and chaotic.

Indeed over time I did take control of your edging and orgasms. I had also kept an eye on how locktober went for you and had noticed that no touch was a very difficult challenge for you and that a month was pushing limits. (Though my control over both edges and orgasms came after.)

Whilst yes things did start out as motivating and organizing you, it did become a very good friendship and dynamic that works for us both over time. Also I think more what you were looking for without knowing it was what you wanted. (But then what subby doesn't hope for a good dom that understands them and their needs.) Holding back from orgasm when it is ordered by the mob of a website can be fun in its own right, but has a different feel to when it is for someone you have built a bond with. Amongst other things . So lets talk about those buttons.....

Lets start with the one that this blog is most about, edging. It quickly became apparent to me that you were both able to edge a lot and willing, but... what if those edges were limited down to a smaller number and more controlled on when they could be done, could that help keep you focused on your needed tasks and make the edges more impactful? Well... yes.. it has. It was not the first thing I learned but certainly one that has been impactful in more ways than one. When permitted to edge as much as she likes Snoek will edge far more often and the edges become easier to do, but the constant arousal has a negative impact on getting other things done, her mind wandering back to edging often. But when controlled, the first edge douse become harder to reach but they are more impactful and allow Snoek to be horny without losing all focus to edging.

Next on the list... the no touch from locktober, that was very impactful. No touch is a big big motivator that Snoek will go to quite the effort to avoid. It was also the first thing I took control over. (though I limited the length to days as locktober had shown that would be enough to motivated and indeed it was.) While Snoek has called tiger balm her enemy... I would say it is more apt to sat that no touch is. The level of frustration Snoek can hit in just a day of no touch can be enough to make the next days edges slightly risky and required to be controlled (Much to her protests that she can do it, when she has tried she has gone too far.) And after a month... it is pretty much a guarantee that Snoek will go over on the first edge attempt.

So... Tiger balm... The one that always makes me giggle. Snoek has had quite the journey with this one. When Snoek first tried tiger balm it was near impossible to get her to stop applying lol, she would constantly beg for more as the feel of the burning started to go down. So what changed? The first edge was what changed that. When Snoek first released how difficult the first edge after tiger balm was to get to and how intense it felt due to being so over sensitized.... that was when Snoek decided it was an enemy taking away her beloved edges lol. While something I don't often use, this can be useful. If I am giving permission for someone else to control her vibe. This can be a useful thing to do prior to reduce the risk they push Snoek over into orgasm. But Snoek will still protest. It is not the tiger balm itself (though Snoek douse find that intense, but the difficulty of edging that douse it.)

So cycling lanes.... wonder how that one happened The experience of the cycling with a dildo in did have quite the impact I had hoped it would

But the biggest one is not in the list, the biggest thing princess has learned through your edging amongst other things is just how quickly and easily you can get sub frenzy. This has been the constant one to manage as I can control what new stuff I say to you... not so much others.... and the minute you learn something new... full on sub frenzy again this isn't the worst thing and certainly not unique to you, but it is something to watch as the same way it will get you edging non stop it can also push you to try things your not fully ready for or to go further with things than you should. But again not unique and I don't know if there is a subby out there that hasn't had frenzy at least once. (:

I knew you remembered things better than me!! But tiger balm is my no1 enemy!!! No doubt!!! Thanks a lot for your, more organised... Addition (:

 

[Pluky]

As I was reading I realized I pretty much Already knew about all this from the chat haha