If you had asked me 5 years ago the answer would probably be "heterosexual". If you had asked me 10 years ago I would have answered this without a doubt.
All my life I have felt attracted to women only and the idea of doing anything romantic or sexual with a man turned me off.
In recent years my feelings have shifted and evolved. It first started with a - since fulfilled - fantasy of getting pegged by a woman. Which in turn was born out of my love of anal play. That fantasy evolved further to getting fucked by a man and giving a guy a blowjob. Both of these have since happened as well.
This all evolved further still by finding a guys dick to be very attractive. Seeing dick honestly turns me on now.
But despite all that I am still not attracted to a mans body beyond their dick (and shaved ass). I'm not even attracted to a guys feet, even though there's not really any difference from woman's feet which do turn me on a lot.
Also I still don't feel romantically attracted to guys in any way and I would not want do date a guy or kiss a guy. My attraction only revolves around their crotch area. I also am still sexually attracted to women more and above all I'm attracted to femininity. This is also an explanation why I do feel very much attracted to trans-women. If they still have a penis - sorry if this offends anyone - they are even more attractive to me and I think I would date a trans-women.
So now that I described it all I still don't know how to label it. I don't really like labels because unless you are
straight or gay (which I personally believe nobody truly is) it becomes confusing. I'm pretty sure I can't label myself as "bisexual" because of my very different feelings for the genders. "Heteroflexible" or "bicurious" both seem better (is there a difference?) but are still pretty vague. And the term "queer" seems just a placeholder for 'I don't know'.
My sexuality may still evolve as really I do believe it it fluid. At least it is for me.
All my life I have felt attracted to women only and the idea of doing anything romantic or sexual with a man turned me off.
In recent years my feelings have shifted and evolved. It first started with a - since fulfilled - fantasy of getting pegged by a woman. Which in turn was born out of my love of anal play. That fantasy evolved further to getting fucked by a man and giving a guy a blowjob. Both of these have since happened as well.
This all evolved further still by finding a guys dick to be very attractive. Seeing dick honestly turns me on now.
But despite all that I am still not attracted to a mans body beyond their dick (and shaved ass). I'm not even attracted to a guys feet, even though there's not really any difference from woman's feet which do turn me on a lot.
Also I still don't feel romantically attracted to guys in any way and I would not want do date a guy or kiss a guy. My attraction only revolves around their crotch area. I also am still sexually attracted to women more and above all I'm attracted to femininity. This is also an explanation why I do feel very much attracted to trans-women. If they still have a penis - sorry if this offends anyone - they are even more attractive to me and I think I would date a trans-women.
So now that I described it all I still don't know how to label it. I don't really like labels because unless you are
straight or gay (which I personally believe nobody truly is) it becomes confusing. I'm pretty sure I can't label myself as "bisexual" because of my very different feelings for the genders. "Heteroflexible" or "bicurious" both seem better (is there a difference?) but are still pretty vague. And the term "queer" seems just a placeholder for 'I don't know'.My sexuality may still evolve as really I do believe it it fluid. At least it is for me.
