1. What is your top 3 biggest physical fears (ex. snakes, spiders, etc.).
1- HEIGHTS - I'm small for a reason
2- Spiders - as long as their not on me, too close, or in my flat I can be fine and appreciate some are cute - but NOPE otherwise
3- Most creepy crawlies if they're on me or a chance for them to touch me
2. What is your top 3 biggest non-physical fears (ex. dying alone, disappointing loved ones etc.)
1- Disappointing loved ones definitely
2- Feeling it's proven right that I'm unlovable and a bad person
3- sugar (but this is getting better and I am 100% aware its dumb as fuck but this last year fear of sugar has been a big issue)
3. What is the funniest thing you have ever been afraid of?
I guess it's linked - but when I was younger I was terrified of Doctors (funny on reflection) and also needles - I once as a teenager did run around a clinic room trying to avoid an injection --> now I've had so many piercings on choice and I am booking my 3rd tattoo and I'm just excited (I think it was more a control based fear - If they gave me the needle to push in I'd be fine but I didn't want someone else doing it)
4. Do you have any irrational fears/
SUGAR! It's the dumbest thing I've been scared of - it's an essential thing and it tastes good and it's good for you (not in massive excess but you absolutely need some - as I found out the hard way) --> it's been a huge irrational fear over the last year and a bit and I'm working on it and it's a bit better but I'm always aware that this is dumb
5. Have you ever scared anybody on purpose? Tell me about it.
Yes! I was a big fan of hiding and jumping out on people all my life, and teasing them with things that they find scary (within reason) - Also very much a fan of making friends watch horror movies with me - especially if they're not big on horror
6. What are 5 things that make you unique?
Oh damn thats a suckerpunch - I dont think I'm interesting enough for 5 XD
1- so not unique to the whole world at all but something I hold on to that makes me feel unique is being a natural redhead (obvs theres many in the world but still only 2% of the global population and the blue eyes combination is rarer still)- I'm the only one in my family, one great great aunt was ginger but otherwise no others, and despite a pretty large extended family after my generation there is still no other redhead amongst us - I hated it when I was young because I didn't fit in but now I'm so so so so grateful for it and I love my ginger hair.
2- my first name is an odd spelling and I have yet to ever see someone else anywhere - in real life or online - that has this spelling.
3- Generally I am a very early bird - 4-6am is my usual wake up times, though this gets later with some of my current medications especially if unwell and have the medications
4- I pride myself on being rebellious - but my rebellions are backwards - I rebelled so much as a teen against my family; which meant I stayed in school, worked hard for good grades and avoided a nice joyride with the Po Po - I'd often hear 'you're the middle child you're supposed to be the rebellious difficult one' and I was but for me
rebellion meant to actually behave and work hard and be try to stay kind.
5- Without much identifying detail - I think in general my path in life is unique - the dualities of my profession and my background and life and difficulties is quite a stark contrast.
7. What is the weirdest thing you can tell me about you?
Oh god i have many but not all are safe for public posting (maybe too weird for that - PM me Butterfly if you're curious though)
So I'll stick with - I have mild hypermobility -- I can bend my elbows in very weird and odd angles that often really creep people out and I love their reactions to that!
8. Do you have any weird talents? What are they?
Tbh I'd always advocate I have 0 talents - I don't really excel in anything but I float well across a few basic things
- I'll refer back to I can bend my joints - esp elbows in fun ways
9. What quirks do you find attractive or adorable?
I love people who hyperfixate on things and nerd rant their favourite topics and not feel compelled to hold back for social ettiquete -> I love hearing all passionate speeches of niche information and experience so always lay that on me!
10. Do you think you are a quirky person?
I do - but in the sense I've always just done my thing, I find the whimsy and celebrate it as much as possible because life is hard and its serious at times and unavoidable - so please I will adult, I will do whats needed - but let me keep some whimsy, joy and humour in everything big and small